since it has been so long i feel the need to update on life and whatnot, even though pretty sure no one reads this.

school has been the most stressful thing EVER. i had 17 credits and was spending 21 hours in class a week, plus another 21-ish a week on homework and about 20 hours working. ick. thankfully i dropped physics, which was a tough decision due to the fact that it reads as a failure to me, so now my load is a little lighter. too bad this is getting to be the last few weeks of the semester so now i have projects constantly and last tests before finals and such. right now i have 3 different projects going on. three different projects, well actually 4. 3 of them are group projects, which sucks because we always happen to have opposite schedules. i have my Praxis 1 test on saturday morning, which is making me nervous. i want to get the scores that the state wants me to get to graduate right away, and i want to be accepted into professional education already. i'm sooooooo stressed....and it's getting way overwhelming. thankfully the praxis is this week, and then one of my projects, my scene performance, will be done with next week and things will settle down a little.

its really frustrating, school was my 'break.' all summer i've been working. it was every single day. i don't think i've had a summer like that ever, where it was so boring and full of work all the time. i don't think i saw hardly anyone because i was always working. i didn't see Jake hardly at all, even though my family will claim i saw him every day. i was looking forward to not working every day, but i don't think this is what i wanted to come to. now i feel like i'm constantly pulling me hair out. i haven't had a break yet. winter break is taking forever to get here too =[ i want it now.

to add along to the stress there has been some drama, so to speak. i don't really want to fully discuss it because it's something i don't want everyone to hear about, especially since i'm sure some people could just stumble onto this blog anyway. i think its getting resolved, or more so than before. it got really bad today where i was accused of something that was kind of right, but then again not. like i did say things, but the things i said were not at all what was passed through the grapevine. thats pretty much all i'm going to say, but it had definitely added to my stress and frustration...basically, today was a rough day.

i just have to get through this week, then its one week til thanksgiving, then after thanksgiving one week til finals. i'm really going to have to buckle down and work, but i can do it. its just 4 more weeks of my life, then a month break. i'm excited.

on a happier note:
travis and kyle and the rest of their cross country team are going to nationals!
my sister and her volleyball team are going to nationals =]
i'm getting so much closer to break
it's about time for bed =]
and i have the most amazing best friend ever =] he's basically amazing

i worry too much...about things i shouldn't worry about or am told not to worry about.

great.

so i was watching so you think you can dance. my brother looked at the screen and told me that i could do that. i cried.